Lazy + no motivation...ugh!

So I haven't really started my "journey" so to speak. I was so pumped to begin but then I kept making excuses. I have been using the Vi shake mix that I had gotten back in October and usually have just one shake a day. Surprisingly I have lost 8 lbs in one month just on that alone. I think by having a shake, it makes me aware of what I eat rather than just winging it. I am BAD for not eating most of the day so that is a problem in it's own. Nel, my friend signed me up on the LoseIt site & I got the app for my iphone. It is pretty sweet! I am definitely thinking about how many calories I am eating!! So heres to the start of my blog. I hope to make a post at LEAST once a week. I have a long journey ahead. I started it at 200lbs. I am at 192lbs and want to get back down to 130....I know. A BIG DREAM. I have hit bottom and the only place to go from here is up...right?? I hate myself and what I have become. I do not like people looking at me and feel so ugly. That is why I need to go up. NOT down. To learn to love myself and feel comfortable in my own body. Welcome....:)